just to let you know. I am now moving to sophstomorrow.tumblr.com
hope to see you there
Monday, November 2, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Ponga-Ponga und Kulturschock
This is for all the fun times we shared
All the times we drank
Then I drink to this, the fun, stressful, sad, happy times ahead.
To all the things we discussed.
For the times we slept through
The times where we laughed sang and cried.
Came up with our own words,
Became a weekly fascination
Things that could define what we went through
Things you wouldn’t understand but somehow people do
Times where it was only funny to me
But embarrassing to you
For the all the wonder walls, kompliments and sex on fire’s
For the wine, beer, whiskey and cokes.
For the ponga-pongas
For lame jokes
For the times we shared.
For the times we learned
Slept, joked, talked, slept.
Misuse of the speaker system
For the bonfire, and bread
For all the closeness
For the friendships
For the music
For the groups.
This is for you.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
TRAVEL UPDATE #1
Its October, the 10 month of the year, almost 5 months of me living in Germany.
So far, my life here has been travelling, and working. Travelling as a backpacker (first time as well!) and working here at a local radio in Weimar.
I have been able to go to places i have always wanted to see. Places that have a meaning for me.
I have hopped to Canada, seen the west side, more specifically Vancouver Island, and Vancouver. Had a little love liason there.
Been to Holland, to visit my roots, and family. Seen the landscape where my family comes from (well at least). Seen the beach in the first time in several months. It makes you realise how lucky one is that one can live near the beach. Makes me realise I took it for granted.
Been to Vienna, met people, followed people. Falling. Partying, visited landmarks, got to know it better. Would go back if i could to see it better.
Been to Basel, if only for a quick time. Saw it at night, saw lights flickering, almost like it was an intergalactic galaxy with lights flicking, not being able to see it proper. Would see it better by day.
Stuck in Germany with a grin on my face. As long as I am enjoying this, its more than i could ask for.
So far, my life here has been travelling, and working. Travelling as a backpacker (first time as well!) and working here at a local radio in Weimar.
I have been able to go to places i have always wanted to see. Places that have a meaning for me.
I have hopped to Canada, seen the west side, more specifically Vancouver Island, and Vancouver. Had a little love liason there.
Been to Holland, to visit my roots, and family. Seen the landscape where my family comes from (well at least). Seen the beach in the first time in several months. It makes you realise how lucky one is that one can live near the beach. Makes me realise I took it for granted.
Been to Vienna, met people, followed people. Falling. Partying, visited landmarks, got to know it better. Would go back if i could to see it better.
Been to Basel, if only for a quick time. Saw it at night, saw lights flickering, almost like it was an intergalactic galaxy with lights flicking, not being able to see it proper. Would see it better by day.
Stuck in Germany with a grin on my face. As long as I am enjoying this, its more than i could ask for.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Those were the times, we laughed, we sang, we cryed.
Todays Wednesday.
Its the middle of the week, two more days to go until the weekend.
Its almost 10 in the morning. start of a long writing process ahead, one where im like emptyheaded after.
Frankly, right now, I just want to sleep. The weather is such a good weather to sleep long and hve a relaxed day.
Tomorrows Thursday. Hopefully I will get that USB-Internet stick to skype. If Deutsche bank decides to cooperate
And then its Friday. And then its the weekend. then its a week in nomand lands. And then it all starts again.
I'll miss you. You were always the quiet one but you were always there. :'(
"We packed all our bags and we moved to the shack on the hill
Living like kings we relied on the cheapest of thrills
Plenty of wine and guitars and an old 8 track
Nothing to worry about in that holy shack
Just a place where we could be ourselves
89 freedom street where everything happens and nobody sleeps" - 89 Freedom Street by Something With Numbers
Its the middle of the week, two more days to go until the weekend.
Its almost 10 in the morning. start of a long writing process ahead, one where im like emptyheaded after.
Frankly, right now, I just want to sleep. The weather is such a good weather to sleep long and hve a relaxed day.
Tomorrows Thursday. Hopefully I will get that USB-Internet stick to skype. If Deutsche bank decides to cooperate
And then its Friday. And then its the weekend. then its a week in nomand lands. And then it all starts again.
I'll miss you. You were always the quiet one but you were always there. :'("We packed all our bags and we moved to the shack on the hill
Living like kings we relied on the cheapest of thrills
Plenty of wine and guitars and an old 8 track
Nothing to worry about in that holy shack
Just a place where we could be ourselves
89 freedom street where everything happens and nobody sleeps" - 89 Freedom Street by Something With Numbers
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
i hear your words, i call my name
To belong to a Generation - what does that mean?
What does that actually mean. The dicitonary defines "Generation" as
What does that actually mean. The dicitonary defines "Generation" as
a. A group of individuals born and living about the same time.
b. A group of generally contemporaneous individuals regarded as having common cultural or social characteristics and attitudes: "They're the television generation" (Roger Enrico).
One associates to belong as a form of security, a form of posession. Does belonging to a generation mean a sense of security? but what of those who feel they were born at the wrong time and in the wrong generation? What then?
One associates to belong as a form of security, a form of posession. Does belonging to a generation mean a sense of security? but what of those who feel they were born at the wrong time and in the wrong generation? What then?
Thursday, October 1, 2009
wir waren dabei, wir sind dabei uns so verliern
Todays date is October 1st 2009. It is the anniversary of 20 years "Wendeherbst" ("Wendeherbst" is a german term to describe the autumn of '89 before the wall fell). During this time there was alot of uprising and demonstrations leading to the falling of the Berlin Wall.
Wikipedia, under the article "Wende in der DDR ("the turning point in the GDR")", describes this as
"Im Herbst 1989 protestierte eine wachsende Zahl von DDR-Bürgern in einer Reihe von friedlichen Demonstrationen gegen die Politik der SED. Repressionsmaßnahmen wie die Schließung der Grenze zur Tschechoslowakei im September 1989 oder Polizeieinsätze gegen Demonstranten wie Anfang Oktober 1989 in Berlin erhöhten die Unzufriedenheit. Die SED-Führung verzichtete zuletzt auf den Einsatz von Staatsgewalt gegen die Demonstranten, versuchte durch einen Wechsel des Spitzenpersonals und durch Dialogbereitschaft am „Runden Tisch“ vergeblich politische Initiative zurückzugewinnen, ließ am 9. November 1989 die Grenzöffnung zur Bundesrepublik und West-Berlin zu und musste ihre Machtposition schließlich aufgeben und den Weg zu einer frei gewählten Volksvertretung freigeben."
TRANSLATION: - In the autumn of 1989, an increasing number of GDR-habitants protests in a row from peaceful demonstrations against the politics of the SED. Law enforcements measurements, such as the closing of the border to the Czech Republic in September 1989 or the riot police against the protestors, like in beginning of October 1989 in Berlin, only increased the unhappiness. The SED-party waivered lastly on a deployment of lawyers against the protestors, tried through a change of keyleaders and through talks at the "round table" in futile attempts to win back political initiative. Despite this, they let the borders open to the German Republic (West Germany) and West-Berlin on the 9th of November and had to lastly give up their powerful position to ensure a path to freely-chosen parliament."
I was born 2 years after this fact, and despite having a mother who grew up in the DDR (GDR to all you english speaking people) I can't imagine what it was like to grow up in a divided country. All that I know from the DDR is from movies, history lessons and from stories told to me by my german relatives who grew up or are old enough to remember these times.
But from what I have been told, I feel grateful for the times that I grew up and that because of, what would have been now 60 years DDR, those times and the stories it also makes me aware that i had it so much lighter than my mum. Yes it was a different generation, but I grew up in a country where I could freely see my family and friends, not having to live in fear that my official permission to leave the country may not be approved. And thanks to mum living in the DDR and wanting more than living a very controlled country, I grew up knowing freedom and fighting for those who dont have a better life than i do.
That lead me to think what is the actual difference between these two very similar but different "stereotypes".
So doing some research on the internet (thank you Google father company of blogger!) i came up from this answer on yahoo answers (http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060817075421AAgLcEk) from the user Solrium.
"Goths - these are the little brothers and sisters, spawned from the Elder Goths - grew up in the 90s; a lot more violent, and quiet a bit more anti-disestablishment. They saw the inaction of elder goths as weak mindedness and general lack of "true feelings." They were very passionate, however stood tight to the feelings of intelligence and understanding. Many are currently in their 20s' and various still maintain a strong appearance, while others have lowered their flags to try and make some money in the world.
now emo:
Emo: besides the original use of it in the 1980s, which was the exact opposite as it is today - Emo kids think it stands short for "emotional"; however it's something MUCH different.
Look it up, I won't go much into it.
Anyway - Emo kids wear jeans and a black shirt - not the common all black wear of a Goth; and they don't do the entire industrial scene, which a Goth wouldn't mind. Emo kids wear jeans and a band shirt, have black hair, and unlike their cousins the Goths - they don't believe in disestablishment, instead, they don't give two flying screws about the Establishment of the poltiical or religious scene.
Instead, all they worry about is themselves. How the world affects them. How their parents are against them. How everyone is against them. Their dog is against them. Their girlfriend was obviously planning on breaking his heart the whole time.
The entire emo scene promotes self centerdness, and pitty, in attempts to gain attention and praise, support from others. Instead of the Goth/Punk scene that strode towards self accomplishments and self realization through the blood and sweat of the self.
Oh, and you'd never see an Emo kid doing a suspension or a crucification off of fish hooks for fun like some of the "extreme" industrial goths would. Instead, Emo hasn't had enough time to grow as a culture to allow for difference inside of itself, and an "extreme" Emo kid is basically one that puts a suicide note on myspace and goes through with killing himself. Maybe in 10 years time we will see the spawn of the Emo children, and have some variation to the blood, but as of right now it's a heavily influenced MTV scene that has not had any time to grab hold as a subculture in itself."
Me, I think I am sitting on the borderline between emo and normal...According to facebook, I am an indie emo. But like most things, you shouldn't really take those quizzes seriously. But just for the sake of arguments I am just going to use it. But i don't really consider myself to be an emo - just because i like some screamo music, black hoodies, black skinny jeans, my connies, and the alternate colour in my hair it doesnt mean i am an emo...
Okay I know this was a long long long long (breaks the up-til-now-non-existent-record-of-longest-post ever!) post but it's kinda a make-up post to the silent internet-frequencies due to my travels.
"Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)" Uprising by Muse
Wikipedia, under the article "Wende in der DDR ("the turning point in the GDR")", describes this as
"Im Herbst 1989 protestierte eine wachsende Zahl von DDR-Bürgern in einer Reihe von friedlichen Demonstrationen gegen die Politik der SED. Repressionsmaßnahmen wie die Schließung der Grenze zur Tschechoslowakei im September 1989 oder Polizeieinsätze gegen Demonstranten wie Anfang Oktober 1989 in Berlin erhöhten die Unzufriedenheit. Die SED-Führung verzichtete zuletzt auf den Einsatz von Staatsgewalt gegen die Demonstranten, versuchte durch einen Wechsel des Spitzenpersonals und durch Dialogbereitschaft am „Runden Tisch“ vergeblich politische Initiative zurückzugewinnen, ließ am 9. November 1989 die Grenzöffnung zur Bundesrepublik und West-Berlin zu und musste ihre Machtposition schließlich aufgeben und den Weg zu einer frei gewählten Volksvertretung freigeben."
TRANSLATION: - In the autumn of 1989, an increasing number of GDR-habitants protests in a row from peaceful demonstrations against the politics of the SED. Law enforcements measurements, such as the closing of the border to the Czech Republic in September 1989 or the riot police against the protestors, like in beginning of October 1989 in Berlin, only increased the unhappiness. The SED-party waivered lastly on a deployment of lawyers against the protestors, tried through a change of keyleaders and through talks at the "round table" in futile attempts to win back political initiative. Despite this, they let the borders open to the German Republic (West Germany) and West-Berlin on the 9th of November and had to lastly give up their powerful position to ensure a path to freely-chosen parliament."
I was born 2 years after this fact, and despite having a mother who grew up in the DDR (GDR to all you english speaking people) I can't imagine what it was like to grow up in a divided country. All that I know from the DDR is from movies, history lessons and from stories told to me by my german relatives who grew up or are old enough to remember these times.
But from what I have been told, I feel grateful for the times that I grew up and that because of, what would have been now 60 years DDR, those times and the stories it also makes me aware that i had it so much lighter than my mum. Yes it was a different generation, but I grew up in a country where I could freely see my family and friends, not having to live in fear that my official permission to leave the country may not be approved. And thanks to mum living in the DDR and wanting more than living a very controlled country, I grew up knowing freedom and fighting for those who dont have a better life than i do.
GOTH VS. EMOS
This is probably a topic that has been discussed way too many times but its a topic that came into my mind on the walk to the train station on the way home. Basically it generates from a memory (recent one mind you) where dad and i were at a second hand bookshop back in Australia, on the one street where a lot of emos walk past (because there is a rather large independent CD store further up the street - to get there you kinda have to walk past this second hand bookstore). Somehow the conversation with the bookseller turned to goths and emos and what the hell the difference is. Best description i have heard to distinguish them both - "Emos - the parents pay for the clothing"That lead me to think what is the actual difference between these two very similar but different "stereotypes".
So doing some research on the internet (thank you Google father company of blogger!) i came up from this answer on yahoo answers (http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20060817075421AAgLcEk) from the user Solrium.
"Goths - these are the little brothers and sisters, spawned from the Elder Goths - grew up in the 90s; a lot more violent, and quiet a bit more anti-disestablishment. They saw the inaction of elder goths as weak mindedness and general lack of "true feelings." They were very passionate, however stood tight to the feelings of intelligence and understanding. Many are currently in their 20s' and various still maintain a strong appearance, while others have lowered their flags to try and make some money in the world.
now emo:
Emo: besides the original use of it in the 1980s, which was the exact opposite as it is today - Emo kids think it stands short for "emotional"; however it's something MUCH different.
Look it up, I won't go much into it.
Anyway - Emo kids wear jeans and a black shirt - not the common all black wear of a Goth; and they don't do the entire industrial scene, which a Goth wouldn't mind. Emo kids wear jeans and a band shirt, have black hair, and unlike their cousins the Goths - they don't believe in disestablishment, instead, they don't give two flying screws about the Establishment of the poltiical or religious scene.
Instead, all they worry about is themselves. How the world affects them. How their parents are against them. How everyone is against them. Their dog is against them. Their girlfriend was obviously planning on breaking his heart the whole time.
The entire emo scene promotes self centerdness, and pitty, in attempts to gain attention and praise, support from others. Instead of the Goth/Punk scene that strode towards self accomplishments and self realization through the blood and sweat of the self.
Oh, and you'd never see an Emo kid doing a suspension or a crucification off of fish hooks for fun like some of the "extreme" industrial goths would. Instead, Emo hasn't had enough time to grow as a culture to allow for difference inside of itself, and an "extreme" Emo kid is basically one that puts a suicide note on myspace and goes through with killing himself. Maybe in 10 years time we will see the spawn of the Emo children, and have some variation to the blood, but as of right now it's a heavily influenced MTV scene that has not had any time to grab hold as a subculture in itself."
Me, I think I am sitting on the borderline between emo and normal...According to facebook, I am an indie emo. But like most things, you shouldn't really take those quizzes seriously. But just for the sake of arguments I am just going to use it. But i don't really consider myself to be an emo - just because i like some screamo music, black hoodies, black skinny jeans, my connies, and the alternate colour in my hair it doesnt mean i am an emo...
Okay I know this was a long long long long (breaks the up-til-now-non-existent-record-of-longest-post ever!) post but it's kinda a make-up post to the silent internet-frequencies due to my travels.
"Another promise, another scene, another
A package not to keep us trapped in greed
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined
(So come on!)" Uprising by Muse
Friday, September 4, 2009
and now we are counting down the times, we know how it feels
Break ups are never so easy to deal with. If you think about it, it may seem strange to break up with someone, where the week before you might have said "I love you". But the idea to break up, may have just have been on the spot, where it becomes clear that the relationship isnt working, or it might have been a decision that was decided over a period of time.
It doesn't help that it hurts. I broke up with my ex, recently. I thought that the breakup would hit me hard but it didnt until it was confirmed. For a couple of days i was fine, but now a bit of me is falling apart.
It doesn't help that it hurts. I broke up with my ex, recently. I thought that the breakup would hit me hard but it didnt until it was confirmed. For a couple of days i was fine, but now a bit of me is falling apart.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
yeah, you know those days. Yeah well, it is
Today and yesterday have been a rollercoaster emotional days. Aside from the fact that yesterday was soo much fun at the obstacle climbing course in the forest, personally I feel almost rejected.
One, I miss a beloved alot. To the point, where I am asking myself if I am making too much worries.
To top it off, being flipped out by a close one, doesn't make it any better. It just feels like everything that I do to help one, is just for nothing. It's making me wonder if I should help out next time around. One side, its give it time but on the other its acknowledging the immaturity.
The fact that if i try to explain my side, it just makes it worse. Yeah its overreacting to the extreme but it is also very immature. The fact that one is so close to it, doesnt make the problem easier.
Feels almost like the old days. Like stranded in the desert alone upset days.
One, I miss a beloved alot. To the point, where I am asking myself if I am making too much worries.
To top it off, being flipped out by a close one, doesn't make it any better. It just feels like everything that I do to help one, is just for nothing. It's making me wonder if I should help out next time around. One side, its give it time but on the other its acknowledging the immaturity.
The fact that if i try to explain my side, it just makes it worse. Yeah its overreacting to the extreme but it is also very immature. The fact that one is so close to it, doesnt make the problem easier.
Feels almost like the old days. Like stranded in the desert alone upset days.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
left out in the dark
you know that feeling, if you are a middle child that you are being abandoned/left out.
Its like that with me. I am the oldest child with my parents, but with my cousins I am in the middle. My younger cousin is, I admit, a tad more intelligent than me. My older cousin, was premature and has that sympathy factor. Me, I was born normal and average.
For years, I have always had the feeling that mum wanted me to be like my younger cousin, smart and intelligents, only getting A+ and B+'s.
So I have always felt like people want me to be other people, not who I am. I am lucky to have a guy that loves me for who i am, regardless of how crazy I can be.
But letting go of that feeling of being left out, like he's the cool kid, and I'm just the kid in the hallway...that is probably never going to go away.
Its like that with me. I am the oldest child with my parents, but with my cousins I am in the middle. My younger cousin is, I admit, a tad more intelligent than me. My older cousin, was premature and has that sympathy factor. Me, I was born normal and average.
For years, I have always had the feeling that mum wanted me to be like my younger cousin, smart and intelligents, only getting A+ and B+'s.
So I have always felt like people want me to be other people, not who I am. I am lucky to have a guy that loves me for who i am, regardless of how crazy I can be.
But letting go of that feeling of being left out, like he's the cool kid, and I'm just the kid in the hallway...that is probably never going to go away.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
we shall never forget
The Holocaust has done extreme damage to the souls of the world. However, do people learn from the mistakes of racial war?
"...although we had the right to give up on humanity ... [but] we said no, we must continue believing in a future, because the world has learned. But again, the world hasn't. Had the world learned, there would have been no Cambodia and no Rwanda and no Darfur and no Bosnia. Will the world ever learn?" - Ellie Wiesel, US President Barack Obama's visit to Buchenwald, 05 June 2009
"And that's why he [General Eisenhower] ordered American troops and Germans from the nearby town to tour the camp. He invited congressmen and journalists to bear witness and ordered photographs and films to be made. And he insisted on viewing every corner of these camps so that -- and I quote -- he could "be in a position to give first-hand evidence of these things if ever in the future there develops a tendency to charge these allegations merely to propaganda."
We are here today because we know this work is not yet finished. To this day, there are those who insist that the Holocaust never happened -- a denial of fact and truth that is baseless and ignorant and hateful. This place is the ultimate rebuke to such thoughts; a reminder of our duty to confront those who would tell lies about our history." - US Barack Obama, Buchenwald 05 June 2009
"The last eyewitness appeal to Germany, to all European states, and to the international community to continue preserving and honoring the human gift of remembrance and commemoration into the future. We ask young people to carry on our struggle against Nazi ideology, and for a just, peaceful and tolerant world; a world that has no place for anti-Semitism, racism, xenophobia, and right-wing extremism." - Chancellor Merkel's speech, particular quote from the the presidents of the associations of former inmates at the concentration camps, 05 June 2009
"...although we had the right to give up on humanity ... [but] we said no, we must continue believing in a future, because the world has learned. But again, the world hasn't. Had the world learned, there would have been no Cambodia and no Rwanda and no Darfur and no Bosnia. Will the world ever learn?" - Ellie Wiesel, US President Barack Obama's visit to Buchenwald, 05 June 2009
"And that's why he [General Eisenhower] ordered American troops and Germans from the nearby town to tour the camp. He invited congressmen and journalists to bear witness and ordered photographs and films to be made. And he insisted on viewing every corner of these camps so that -- and I quote -- he could "be in a position to give first-hand evidence of these things if ever in the future there develops a tendency to charge these allegations merely to propaganda."
We are here today because we know this work is not yet finished. To this day, there are those who insist that the Holocaust never happened -- a denial of fact and truth that is baseless and ignorant and hateful. This place is the ultimate rebuke to such thoughts; a reminder of our duty to confront those who would tell lies about our history." - US Barack Obama, Buchenwald 05 June 2009
"The last eyewitness appeal to Germany, to all European states, and to the international community to continue preserving and honoring the human gift of remembrance and commemoration into the future. We ask young people to carry on our struggle against Nazi ideology, and for a just, peaceful and tolerant world; a world that has no place for anti-Semitism, racism, xenophobia, and right-wing extremism." - Chancellor Merkel's speech, particular quote from the the presidents of the associations of former inmates at the concentration camps, 05 June 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Make some noise
Ever get the feeling someone thinks you can do less than what you can? Or the usual excuse is "she/he doesnt know how to do it" when you do?
Even when you have been travelling alone the person seen that you planned it all by your own, but still thinks that you are still a child.
Yeah, I hate that too. Especially when you can't argue back because the time is wrong.
"I think I know
I think I know
I think I know why the dog howls at the moon,
now sing Dela" - Dela by The Beautiful Girls
Even when you have been travelling alone the person seen that you planned it all by your own, but still thinks that you are still a child.
Yeah, I hate that too. Especially when you can't argue back because the time is wrong.
"I think I know
I think I know
I think I know why the dog howls at the moon,
now sing Dela" - Dela by The Beautiful Girls
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
this is what it feels like
Sometimes ttravelling isnt what it is meant to be. Yeah, you do miss the laid back, not having to care about all the little nuances like travel insurances, job hunting, activities like you do when you go with your family.
Instead, theres the bus connections, how much money you have, currency conversions, transport home..activities...
but that said I wouldn't want to change it for a bit. I liked that whole atmosphere, discovering the world for a small budget.
You have these experiences that help colour your life, and sometimes have such a profound influence, that you see the world differently.
Instead, theres the bus connections, how much money you have, currency conversions, transport home..activities...
but that said I wouldn't want to change it for a bit. I liked that whole atmosphere, discovering the world for a small budget.
You have these experiences that help colour your life, and sometimes have such a profound influence, that you see the world differently.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Invisible Children
For those who don't have the means to have a proper childhood, no chance to have an education because their family is struggling to survive.
We can make a difference, our voices CAN BE HEARD. We can help make these children's life better. Here is the proof.
We can make a difference, our voices CAN BE HEARD. We can help make these children's life better. Here is the proof.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
i wonder....
"Tell your boyfriend that if he says he's got beef,
then I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him"
Ever wonder where lines that come up from? or how people think of phrasing things like that?
then I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him"
Ever wonder where lines that come up from? or how people think of phrasing things like that?
Sunday, April 5, 2009
this is why haters get attention
was twittering around on twitter.
when i came across a Bill-Fake. now it wasn't hard to spot that the person was fake.
this is why.
"Yes! This is the real Bill Kaulitz! We've got updates from his team, his website and yes, even Bill himself!"
this was posted under the bio section.
Now if it was really Bill Kaulitz, then he wouldn't have used third person would he?
get your bloody grammar right.
"Party queens
If you wanna be seen,
take a shit where you sleep,
and smile real wide for the pa-pa-pa-pa-parazzi everywhere" - Smile For The Paparazzi by Cobra Starship
when i came across a Bill-Fake. now it wasn't hard to spot that the person was fake.
this is why.
"Yes! This is the real Bill Kaulitz! We've got updates from his team, his website and yes, even Bill himself!"
this was posted under the bio section.
Now if it was really Bill Kaulitz, then he wouldn't have used third person would he?
get your bloody grammar right.
"Party queens
If you wanna be seen,
take a shit where you sleep,
and smile real wide for the pa-pa-pa-pa-parazzi everywhere" - Smile For The Paparazzi by Cobra Starship
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Time after Time, I lose again
Got my part one of The Rasmus parcels. This is what I received :D super dooper excited. the Rasmus have been a BIG BIG favorite of mine for a long while now.Only to be marred with Dead Letters to be fatally scratched. Will have a funeral for it later and resurrect it. :(
when I lose myself I think of you
He loves me
He loves me not
He loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
he loves me not
he loves me
I'm talking to myself again
I'm talking to myself again
I'm still talking to myself
"And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon just me and you" Monsoon by Tokio Hotel
Verdict: He loves me not....and I'm still talking to myself
"And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon just me and you" Monsoon by Tokio Hotel
Sunday, March 22, 2009
3 vodkas after
Okay, Mum has friends over, so I'm bored shitless, and I've turned to alcohol. Hmm great makings of an alcoholic i can hear you think...
anyway the whole reason for posting this blog, is to advertise the amazingness of Marianas Trench - Cross My Heart.
To prove the amazingness of their music, here is the vid (fanmade) of the acoustic version of that song
anyway the whole reason for posting this blog, is to advertise the amazingness of Marianas Trench - Cross My Heart.
To prove the amazingness of their music, here is the vid (fanmade) of the acoustic version of that song
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Erfurt Massacre, 2002
April 26th 2002, Robert Steinhaeuser shot 13 facility members, 2 students and one police officer at the Johann Gutenberg Gymnasium.
My heart goes to all the victims, and Steinhaeuser family.
(more info go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erfurt_massacre)
I remember the media furore, and the funeral very clearly, though I did not go to the school.
I don't understand what makes that okay in the person's mind. I understand that war video games have an influence but what makes the person cross the line between wats real and wats not.
(Debates on this topic include www.larouchepub.com/other/2002/2918erfurt_killgs.html)
"Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye to all the ones I’ll miss,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye to war and politics," Farewell Rocketship by Children Collide
Friday, March 13, 2009
Not sure how this will turn out, you and me together
I have no witty or ponderous thoughts today, so I think this blog will become paragraphs of thoughts strung together by grammar. My mind tends to think all over the place, so yeah the thoughts may not be in order.
I still have to see Watchmen, even if just for Billy Crodup blue balls (or maybe not), there are soo many things I wanna see, but cant because I have to be in "economy mode" and save. But is that a real reason preventing a few pleasures here and there? I dont know...I'm still figuring that one out.
Seeing book piles makes me realise how much of a book fan I am, call me book worm if you want.
Thats it I'm all out of thoughts, going back to my room to read and listen to soundrelief on nova.
toodles
"And I long for you too a bit
After losing you way across star riddled sky.
To carry you home.
I cherish my loss, a gentle reminder
Life is unkind, at the best of times" - Adieu by Enter Shikari
I still have to see Watchmen, even if just for Billy Crodup blue balls (or maybe not), there are soo many things I wanna see, but cant because I have to be in "economy mode" and save. But is that a real reason preventing a few pleasures here and there? I dont know...I'm still figuring that one out.
Seeing book piles makes me realise how much of a book fan I am, call me book worm if you want.
Thats it I'm all out of thoughts, going back to my room to read and listen to soundrelief on nova.
toodles
"And I long for you too a bit
After losing you way across star riddled sky.
To carry you home.
I cherish my loss, a gentle reminder
Life is unkind, at the best of times" - Adieu by Enter Shikari
Friday, March 6, 2009
cry over me, just the one time
Maybe its a sign of maybe I'm not over my breakup with my ex (could you call him my ex with our history?), that whenever I'm talking/see a person in a relationship, i curse my unlucky stars and maybe think that maybe I'm too ugly/not a nice personality and ask why I am always single...or maybe its because I'm too negative for guys to even consider a relationship with me
...or maybe I'm destined to be a spinster.
and maybe, I dunno, maybe its because of the alcohol in my system, but the single depression has gotten me really teary/depressed that i just cant see the point...
of living in happiness.
Dont get me wrong, I am extremely happy for my friends who are in a relationship, its a more "Its-not-your-fault-its-my-problem-and-you-guys-arent-the-reason-for-it" philosophy.
Or maybe the vodka's gone to my head to think rationally and the whole media thing with it being one of an important things in a person's life has gotten into my head and I cant think rationally.
Maybe it's all come down to the point of where I'm tired of waiting for Mr. Prince Charming.
"Another night sleepless
I don't want to feel this
Nothing can stop this pain
Trying to get to
A time I forget you
Still tangled in yesterday
It's so easy for you
To give nothing for me
Did you ever feel anything?" - Cry Over Me by Meatloaf
...or maybe I'm destined to be a spinster.
and maybe, I dunno, maybe its because of the alcohol in my system, but the single depression has gotten me really teary/depressed that i just cant see the point...
of living in happiness.
Dont get me wrong, I am extremely happy for my friends who are in a relationship, its a more "Its-not-your-fault-its-my-problem-and-you-guys-arent-the-reason-for-it" philosophy.
Or maybe the vodka's gone to my head to think rationally and the whole media thing with it being one of an important things in a person's life has gotten into my head and I cant think rationally.
Maybe it's all come down to the point of where I'm tired of waiting for Mr. Prince Charming.
"Another night sleepless
I don't want to feel this
Nothing can stop this pain
Trying to get to
A time I forget you
Still tangled in yesterday
It's so easy for you
To give nothing for me
Did you ever feel anything?" - Cry Over Me by Meatloaf
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Spend time with trouble
I've got to say, i participated in one of the most scariest things ever - allowing myself being towed in my car.
The old car that we have is being a female with PMS (if it ever has the possibility of having PMS), it is cranky, and when something goes wrong, well then most of it just goes wrong.
For now, it will not drive, and if you get it driving, it will die on you, so we had to tow it to the mechanics.
Towing, I guess, is just a matter of trust. A matter of trusting that the person towing knows what you're doing, and a matter of trusting yourself. Even though it is like being a skier, you need the tension in the rope, it is still bloody scary. All the while, I'm going "I'm gonna crash into the back of the front car" whilst trying to convince myself, the worst thats gonna happen is that I'm going to lightly bump it.
I'm glad to have that episode over and done with.
"Underneath our conversation
Unspoken truth
If you wait me I'll wait for you
So meet me underneath the station and I'll wait for you" God is Dead, Meet the Kids by British India
The old car that we have is being a female with PMS (if it ever has the possibility of having PMS), it is cranky, and when something goes wrong, well then most of it just goes wrong.
For now, it will not drive, and if you get it driving, it will die on you, so we had to tow it to the mechanics.
Towing, I guess, is just a matter of trust. A matter of trusting that the person towing knows what you're doing, and a matter of trusting yourself. Even though it is like being a skier, you need the tension in the rope, it is still bloody scary. All the while, I'm going "I'm gonna crash into the back of the front car" whilst trying to convince myself, the worst thats gonna happen is that I'm going to lightly bump it.
I'm glad to have that episode over and done with.
"Underneath our conversation
Unspoken truth
If you wait me I'll wait for you
So meet me underneath the station and I'll wait for you" God is Dead, Meet the Kids by British India
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
I am a young heretic
This short post goes out to Matt Wright fans out there.
He has a new band called Young Heretics
here is the URL www.myspace.com/youngheretics
or www.youngheretics.com
Comment me back with your thoughts
He has a new band called Young Heretics
here is the URL www.myspace.com/youngheretics
or www.youngheretics.com
Comment me back with your thoughts
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
The power of one
Listening to Abbey Road by The Beatles, brings alot of childhood memories back, such as the one, where as a 6 or 7 year old, I would put the vinyl version of this album on the old grammarphone, almost always on the side that would eventually play "Here Comes The Sun", wind it up by myself and let it play.
I think that is one the main reasons where music can be so powerful, it can evoke again memories once thought that were forgotten, of places that remind you of people.
As I have before said, my heart goes out to the victims and families of those who died in the Victorian bushfires.
"Its not what you do that says who you are
The way you do it is who you are
As long as the clock keeps ticking, you'll go
wherever the wind blows
As long as there's life worth living, you'll go
Wherever you go" - Goodbye Mickey Finn by Something With Numbers
I think that is one the main reasons where music can be so powerful, it can evoke again memories once thought that were forgotten, of places that remind you of people.
As I have before said, my heart goes out to the victims and families of those who died in the Victorian bushfires.
"Its not what you do that says who you are
The way you do it is who you are
As long as the clock keeps ticking, you'll go
wherever the wind blows
As long as there's life worth living, you'll go
Wherever you go" - Goodbye Mickey Finn by Something With Numbers
Friday, February 13, 2009
I'm sorry...
My heart goes out to the victims of the Victoria bushfire.
As some of you may be aware, one of our Australian states has been hit by the worst natural disaster in Australian history. Bushfires have been raging in the state of Victoria for 7 days now and are showing no signs of slowing down for many days.
Millions of native animals as well as sheep, horses, cattle and other farming stock animals have been killed as well as family pets. 181 people are confirmed dead, many caught in the quick moving flames with no warning or notice to evacuate, the flames moved that quickly. The death toll is ecpected to reach at least 300 people, even more, and they expect at least 50 bodies wont be able to be formally identified.
The Australian Red Cross is taking donations to help the survivors get their lives back on track as they start to rebuild their lives, most of the survivors escaped with the clothes they had on their backs and any other posessions they could grab. Currently the Australian public has generously donated over 50 million dollars to these people but more funds are needed to support families from over 1,000 homes that have been burnt to the ground during the past week.
Any donations, big or small can be made online through the following link: http://www.redcross.org.au
For recent updates on the fires or the stories of survirors, fire firghters, resucers or even the animals, head over to http://www.news.com.au
Please, pass this blog onto friends, family, work colleques or even your school or university by posting this information on how you can help on bulletin boards, through emails, MySpace, Facebook or any other site.
As some of you may be aware, one of our Australian states has been hit by the worst natural disaster in Australian history. Bushfires have been raging in the state of Victoria for 7 days now and are showing no signs of slowing down for many days.
Millions of native animals as well as sheep, horses, cattle and other farming stock animals have been killed as well as family pets. 181 people are confirmed dead, many caught in the quick moving flames with no warning or notice to evacuate, the flames moved that quickly. The death toll is ecpected to reach at least 300 people, even more, and they expect at least 50 bodies wont be able to be formally identified.
The Australian Red Cross is taking donations to help the survivors get their lives back on track as they start to rebuild their lives, most of the survivors escaped with the clothes they had on their backs and any other posessions they could grab. Currently the Australian public has generously donated over 50 million dollars to these people but more funds are needed to support families from over 1,000 homes that have been burnt to the ground during the past week.
Any donations, big or small can be made online through the following link: http://www.redcross.org.au
For recent updates on the fires or the stories of survirors, fire firghters, resucers or even the animals, head over to http://www.news.com.au
Please, pass this blog onto friends, family, work colleques or even your school or university by posting this information on how you can help on bulletin boards, through emails, MySpace, Facebook or any other site.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
I Don't be A footnote in someone else's happiness
One thing that continually amazes me about how much human beings do no know, is other people's experience.
We think we know everything from the internet and what not, but sometimes when I'm thinking about people, and how they see from their point of view.
No matter how hard I try and think, I simply cannot imagine it, it's almost like I'm hitting an imaginary wall. And if I'm thinking about someone I care and know closely, it for some reason increases my respect and admiration for them.
It proves that technology simply does not know everything.
"I'm falling apart at the seems,
Pitching myself in other people's dreams
Now buzz, buzz, buzz..." Disloyal Bunch Of Water Buffaloes by Fall Out Boy
We think we know everything from the internet and what not, but sometimes when I'm thinking about people, and how they see from their point of view.
No matter how hard I try and think, I simply cannot imagine it, it's almost like I'm hitting an imaginary wall. And if I'm thinking about someone I care and know closely, it for some reason increases my respect and admiration for them.
It proves that technology simply does not know everything.
"I'm falling apart at the seems,
Pitching myself in other people's dreams
Now buzz, buzz, buzz..." Disloyal Bunch Of Water Buffaloes by Fall Out Boy
Monday, February 9, 2009
Would it be good enough??
Book nerd alert!
I am currently reading Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenin. It's meant to be considered as one of his classics (as well as War & Peace).
Personally, I could never really get into War & Peace, Tolstoy's style of writing, is often very confusing as there is a lot of names to remember.
Or maybe its just me trying to read so I can say "I've read War & Peace"
Or maybe its because I was too young to appreciate his writing.
But I am really liking Anna Karenin.
Just like I'm like Franz Ferdinands new album Tonight: Franz Ferdinand.
"I put my faith in you, so much faith in you
And then you threw it away, you threw it away
I'm not denying
My sorry eyes can see" - For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic by Paramore
I am currently reading Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenin. It's meant to be considered as one of his classics (as well as War & Peace).
Personally, I could never really get into War & Peace, Tolstoy's style of writing, is often very confusing as there is a lot of names to remember.
Or maybe its just me trying to read so I can say "I've read War & Peace"
Or maybe its because I was too young to appreciate his writing.
But I am really liking Anna Karenin.
Just like I'm like Franz Ferdinands new album Tonight: Franz Ferdinand.
"I put my faith in you, so much faith in you
And then you threw it away, you threw it away
I'm not denying
My sorry eyes can see" - For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic by Paramore
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Can't take the kids from the fight
Okay, this is a whingy post.
beware.
One thing that bugs me more than anything whilst I am driving - people using the indicators INCORRECTLY.
Indicators are used to INDICATE which way you are moving before moving NOT whilst you are moving.
Guys, please drive properly, otherwise roadrage will occur.
Oh yes, I have my P-plates BUT I'm not like most P-platers. JUST because I have a pendant for driving with loud music, does not make me liable to speeding. I am more inclined to STAY WITHIN the speed limits. So if you see a P-plates, don't immediately judge them.
"Just for the record,
The weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of:
A. Indifference or
B. Disinterest in what the critics say" London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines by Panic! At The Disco
beware.
One thing that bugs me more than anything whilst I am driving - people using the indicators INCORRECTLY.
Indicators are used to INDICATE which way you are moving before moving NOT whilst you are moving.
Guys, please drive properly, otherwise roadrage will occur.
Oh yes, I have my P-plates BUT I'm not like most P-platers. JUST because I have a pendant for driving with loud music, does not make me liable to speeding. I am more inclined to STAY WITHIN the speed limits. So if you see a P-plates, don't immediately judge them.
"Just for the record,
The weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of:
A. Indifference or
B. Disinterest in what the critics say" London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines by Panic! At The Disco
Saturday, January 31, 2009
You are probably thinking I'm wrong.
One question for the moment - Why are musicians (successful)/actor/-resses/etc put on a pedestal? If you really think about it, they are really like you and me, just an ordinary person doing the job that they do the best.
One statement - I had one of the best days today. Followed the train of people, saw people, saw music, saw laughter all in one hard tiring day.
"Don't let the TV mislead you
Me and you dude we are not equal
Fuck you this is for my people " - Peace Sign/Index Down by Gym Class Heroes feat. Busta Rhymes
One statement - I had one of the best days today. Followed the train of people, saw people, saw music, saw laughter all in one hard tiring day.
"Don't let the TV mislead you
Me and you dude we are not equal
Fuck you this is for my people " - Peace Sign/Index Down by Gym Class Heroes feat. Busta Rhymes
Saturday, January 24, 2009
I'm not in it for the power, or the help
That is a man I want to see/meet. His eccentricity is what draws and inspires me.
To all those who know, he sings. To others he is William Beckett.
Regrets. There are millions just like there are apples on a tree on a good harvest morning. It's just one of those many messages that you brain sends. Many of those I-wish-I-have-that messages. Messages that just clog you up like a blocked drain.
And so, we must march on like toy soldiers.
"The time leads for the one.
Pay the cost, pay the fine
They say I'm free, my life is mine
But all that is good is now gone" - Good As Gone by John Butler Trio
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