Today and yesterday have been a rollercoaster emotional days. Aside from the fact that yesterday was soo much fun at the obstacle climbing course in the forest, personally I feel almost rejected.
One, I miss a beloved alot. To the point, where I am asking myself if I am making too much worries.
To top it off, being flipped out by a close one, doesn't make it any better. It just feels like everything that I do to help one, is just for nothing. It's making me wonder if I should help out next time around. One side, its give it time but on the other its acknowledging the immaturity.
The fact that if i try to explain my side, it just makes it worse. Yeah its overreacting to the extreme but it is also very immature. The fact that one is so close to it, doesnt make the problem easier.
Feels almost like the old days. Like stranded in the desert alone upset days.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
left out in the dark
you know that feeling, if you are a middle child that you are being abandoned/left out.
Its like that with me. I am the oldest child with my parents, but with my cousins I am in the middle. My younger cousin is, I admit, a tad more intelligent than me. My older cousin, was premature and has that sympathy factor. Me, I was born normal and average.
For years, I have always had the feeling that mum wanted me to be like my younger cousin, smart and intelligents, only getting A+ and B+'s.
So I have always felt like people want me to be other people, not who I am. I am lucky to have a guy that loves me for who i am, regardless of how crazy I can be.
But letting go of that feeling of being left out, like he's the cool kid, and I'm just the kid in the hallway...that is probably never going to go away.
Its like that with me. I am the oldest child with my parents, but with my cousins I am in the middle. My younger cousin is, I admit, a tad more intelligent than me. My older cousin, was premature and has that sympathy factor. Me, I was born normal and average.
For years, I have always had the feeling that mum wanted me to be like my younger cousin, smart and intelligents, only getting A+ and B+'s.
So I have always felt like people want me to be other people, not who I am. I am lucky to have a guy that loves me for who i am, regardless of how crazy I can be.
But letting go of that feeling of being left out, like he's the cool kid, and I'm just the kid in the hallway...that is probably never going to go away.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
we shall never forget
The Holocaust has done extreme damage to the souls of the world. However, do people learn from the mistakes of racial war?
"...although we had the right to give up on humanity ... [but] we said no, we must continue believing in a future, because the world has learned. But again, the world hasn't. Had the world learned, there would have been no Cambodia and no Rwanda and no Darfur and no Bosnia. Will the world ever learn?" - Ellie Wiesel, US President Barack Obama's visit to Buchenwald, 05 June 2009
"And that's why he [General Eisenhower] ordered American troops and Germans from the nearby town to tour the camp. He invited congressmen and journalists to bear witness and ordered photographs and films to be made. And he insisted on viewing every corner of these camps so that -- and I quote -- he could "be in a position to give first-hand evidence of these things if ever in the future there develops a tendency to charge these allegations merely to propaganda."
We are here today because we know this work is not yet finished. To this day, there are those who insist that the Holocaust never happened -- a denial of fact and truth that is baseless and ignorant and hateful. This place is the ultimate rebuke to such thoughts; a reminder of our duty to confront those who would tell lies about our history." - US Barack Obama, Buchenwald 05 June 2009
"The last eyewitness appeal to Germany, to all European states, and to the international community to continue preserving and honoring the human gift of remembrance and commemoration into the future. We ask young people to carry on our struggle against Nazi ideology, and for a just, peaceful and tolerant world; a world that has no place for anti-Semitism, racism, xenophobia, and right-wing extremism." - Chancellor Merkel's speech, particular quote from the the presidents of the associations of former inmates at the concentration camps, 05 June 2009
"...although we had the right to give up on humanity ... [but] we said no, we must continue believing in a future, because the world has learned. But again, the world hasn't. Had the world learned, there would have been no Cambodia and no Rwanda and no Darfur and no Bosnia. Will the world ever learn?" - Ellie Wiesel, US President Barack Obama's visit to Buchenwald, 05 June 2009
"And that's why he [General Eisenhower] ordered American troops and Germans from the nearby town to tour the camp. He invited congressmen and journalists to bear witness and ordered photographs and films to be made. And he insisted on viewing every corner of these camps so that -- and I quote -- he could "be in a position to give first-hand evidence of these things if ever in the future there develops a tendency to charge these allegations merely to propaganda."
We are here today because we know this work is not yet finished. To this day, there are those who insist that the Holocaust never happened -- a denial of fact and truth that is baseless and ignorant and hateful. This place is the ultimate rebuke to such thoughts; a reminder of our duty to confront those who would tell lies about our history." - US Barack Obama, Buchenwald 05 June 2009
"The last eyewitness appeal to Germany, to all European states, and to the international community to continue preserving and honoring the human gift of remembrance and commemoration into the future. We ask young people to carry on our struggle against Nazi ideology, and for a just, peaceful and tolerant world; a world that has no place for anti-Semitism, racism, xenophobia, and right-wing extremism." - Chancellor Merkel's speech, particular quote from the the presidents of the associations of former inmates at the concentration camps, 05 June 2009
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